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Maid of Honor
All of my life I've had you to depend on,
To laugh with,
To cry with,
Through all of the sadness and all of the fear,
You'd be right here,
To talk me through the anger,
And make me smile,
Though we've gone through many phases,
We always stayed true,
Buffy and Faith,
Phoebe and Prue,
Posh and Baby,
No matter what we say,
Or what we do,
You'll always have me
and I'll have you..
Me
Behind the eyes is a girl who longs for me,
Deep within her heart she wants to be heard,
She wonders what's wrong with her,
When she looks in the mirror,
She starts to cry,
Because she reminds herself of her mother,
Though you thought you knew this girl,
You had no clue,
This girl is me
Million Reasons
Million reasons to cry,
Million reasons to scream,
I act like
nothing phases me,
Inside everything drives me crazy,
People say I'm lost,
Sometimes it's true,
But I dare you
look me in my eyes,
Look right through,
tell me you know what it's like to be me,
You have no clue,
But as each
days passes,
I find less reasons to cry,
And a million more to smile..
A Best Friend
I'll be here for you whenever you need me,
Until the day I take
in my last breath,
I'll be here for you when you need to cry,
I'll make you smile,
So your pain will be worthwhile,
When you need a good laugh turn to me,
I'll make sure you start to giggle,
From the moment I met you,
I knew from the start,
Nothing would tear us apart,
So if your feeling lonely,
And need a friend,
I'll be your light through those dark days,
Your upside down frown,
Like you've done for me,
I'll be your best friend,
Your angel sent from God,
To guide you and protect you,
From all the fear,
Shelter you from the raging storm,
I'll have a soggy shoulder from all your tears,
I promise you this,
All these words,
I'm sending you a message,
There are no words to describe,
How special you are to me,
But I'll tell you over and over again,
Your my best friend,
Until the very end.. to angela..
Smiling
This is not a dream,
This is not a joke,
It's nothing but reality,
I can see,
I can smile,
Though I'm hurting inside,
I keep it locked away,
For you to believe I'm okay,
It's not a lie,
I just get scared,
And start to freeze,
My thoughts are usually negative,
Though my instincts are positive,
I follow my heart,
I can't let this world bring me down,
Everything I do,
Everything I say,
Is for the ones who make it okay,
So I count my blessings and drift away,
I walk away with a smile,
You can look down on me,
All you want,
I'm going to be the better person,
Bite my tounge and laugh it off,
I promised myself I wouldn't let thi world phase me,
So with an open mind,
I'm standing tall,
Breathing,
Succeeding,
With a smile on my face.
Behind these eyes
The warm summer breeze lightly brushing
up against my skin,
The blooming spring flowers bringing color to my eyes,
The violent winter winds chapping my lips,
The
hollow beating of my heart,
The emptiness of my heart reflecting through my eyes and I gaze in the mirror,
My heart
is broken in two because of you,
and yet i still miss you..
Shadow
All I have left is your shadow,
Haunting me in the night,
The
flicker of light in your eyes gone,
The scent of your perfume disapated as just a memory,
The sound of your voice,
Gone
with the blink of an eye,
Frozen inside myself waiting for your arrival,
Now to realize you're never to return,
No
hug or kiss goodbye?
Just the very existence of myself without you,
Holding me down,
Haunting me...
Babsy
You know when I'm lying,
There
ain't no denying,
You stop me from crying,
But if by chance I start to tear,
With your caring voice you say,
"Sweetie,
I'm here"
I push the fear away,
And start to laugh,
Something you were always very good at,
It doesn't matter
where i am or what I do,
I know i'll never be without you,
All I gotta do is pick up the phone and call you at home,
"Hey
Mrs. Corinthos."
"Hey Miss. McCall."
"How was your day at the mall?"
"Girl I have stuff to tell you."
For hours
and hours we talk,
From the second we get home until GH starts,
And thereafter,
You always make my days oh so special,
Babs
I'm proud to say,
Your my best girl 4 shizzle ( don't ask it rymed!!)
Up to you
You looked me in the eyes and told me all your lies,
I'm locked inside
this room with no air to breathe,
With this pen and paper I scream,
Not breathing,
Suffocating in my thoughts of
you,
Locked inside this room thoughts racing through my mind,
Will it ever be my time to shine?
I look back and reflect
on the past,
All you did was make me feel like an a$$,
I try to move on,
I try to block it all away,
But your
memory just won't seem to go away,
You look at me in such disgrace,
Was it that hard to look me in the face?
I'm
just as f'd up and dysfuncitional as you,
I'm sick and tired of this game you play,
I sit on my knees and I pray,
I
pray for you to come to your senses,
And stop using other people's defenses,
I sit on my bed and I cry,
I cry because
you drive me insane,
With or without you,
I'm going crazy,
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to
say,
I guess it's up to you to make it okay.
My Promise
Staring at your picture everynight,
Those bright blue eyes gazing back at
me,
The sound of your cry waking me up in the middle of the night,
Was nothing compared to waking up to my own,
Wishing
you were hear with me,
All I ever wanted was you,
I'd do anything to get you back,
I'd walk 1000 miles in the freezing
snow,
Swim with a few sharks,
Spends months in a desert,
Just to hug you once more,
To feel your tiny hands tugging
at my hair,
Anything just to see the little girl I used to lay down with everymorning,
Anything to hear your baby voice
trying to sing with the radio,
To watch you dance just one more time,
I'd do anything to make you happy,
I promise
to be there when you're older,
I promise to tell you the truth,
One promise I can guarntee you,
Is to love you unconditionally
no matter what the distance between us is.
Your number one problem
Is this what you want?
Are you happy when I'm like this?
I
guess tears rolling down my cheeks makes you smile,
If your incomptence could kill,
I'd be long gone,
My hearts still
beating for the ones that i love,
You can't save me from yourself,
I try so hard,
I've tried for so long,
To deal
with the fact that your gone,
It should've never been like this,
You should've never left,
Your running away from
your number one problem,
Yourself,
I tried to help you,
But you wouldn't listen,
My heart will be open to you,
When
you decide to change,
But I promise you this,
It will never be the same..
???
The voices inside my head,
Screaming,
The memories from years ago,
Haunting
me,
I can't look in the mirror and be proud,
Wanna know why?
Because of you,
I try not to think of you,
I try
not to care,
I just wish you could have been there,
I did my part,
I picked up the pieces,
Why can't you pick
up a phone?
Your afraid of rejection,
Your afraid of be ignored by your own daughter,
Everytime the phone rings,
My
heart starts to race,
I think to myself could it be my mother?
I know it will never be you,
Can't a girl have her
wishes,
You just don't care,
I guess that all the promises you swore to keep,
Are really better off unsaid,
Isn't
it pathetic how,
I'm the one that's figured everything out,
You've been the one to sit back and watch,
It's all a
big movie to you,
Well it's nothing but the truth,
Sorry that it doesn't hurt you,
Because it should..
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